Wednesday, December 19, 2007

to belong.

do you ever sense the divine ordinance of a moment? i do.

this moment, for example. i sit in jared's parents living room, jared sleeping soundly (rather drugged up) after an afternoon of wisdom teeth removal. he's lying on the couch, i sit next to him and his hand rests in my lap. i belong here.

this morning, i sat in the waiting room working through a day of beth moore's a woman's heart: God's dwelling place - an in-depth study of the old testament tabernacle. she pointed my eyes to verse after verse of God's provision for his people, namely the Levites, those who were consecrated to the service of His tabernacle. He never failed to provide for them - mostly through the generosity of their community. God always takes care of those He has called to his service,which is each of us, .and He is so fond of providing through His children. i crave, and am discovering, this community. i belong there.

this weekend, i sat at blue baker with jenn and lindsay. we shared, laughed, felt deeply. we celebrated what has been, rejoiced over the present, and grew joyfully wide-eyed at what is to come. i belong there.

there are so many more of these moments.
reading red moon rising.
listening to ross king and eisley.
dancing. coffee. kissing. writing. cooking. loving.
playing apples to apples.
taking pictures, having pictures taken.
living.

sometimes the concept of "life" is just more clear than normal. praise God for those moments.

and how fascinating to think that this is not the end. that though i feel these are places where i belong - not even they are my home or satisifaction. but someday glory will ultimately overcome my depravity and i will see my Savior face to face. and above all, no questions asked - i belong there.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

another semester down.

5 down, 3 to go...kind of strange.

it is so nice to be on a break, though today has been a day of realizing that a break from school does not mean a break from real life...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

i'm strangely impassioned right now. i don't know if "impassioned" is a word or if it means what i want it to mean, so just for clarity, all i mean there is that i'm, um...made to be passionate?

i'm reading
red moon rising by pete grieg and...all i know to say right now is that God is doing something deep inside my soul. He is awakening my heart, enlightening parts of me that i thought had died and left me for good. but, "hallejulah, i lose again" (ross king) and God's love wins yet again. read "http://notallthatwanderarelost.blogspot.com" which is my roommate, sarah elizabeth's, blog for more on the thought of "Love Wins" - fyi...it always does.

may God teach us to pray.
may He teach us to love as He has first loved us.
may He teach us to see outside of ourselves, our school, our town, our country - and see Him.
may He teach us to have a passion for the salvation of the nations.
may He teach us to seek His heart, His face, more than anything,
anything.
may He teach us to sit, to be quiet, to come away with peace and zeal radically unlike this world.

"for Zion's sake i will not keep silent,
and for Jerusalem's sake i will not be quiet,
until her righteousness goes forth as brightness,
and her salvation as a burning torch."
- isaiah 62:1

Friday, November 9, 2007

it's been a while.

i forgot my user name. which is kind of ridiculous because...never mind. it's just ridiculous.

since i've last updated...

i'm getting married!

the Lord is good. He is teaching and growing Jared and I very much in the concepts of His love and goodness toward us. He is freeing us greatly of legalism and the lists of rules it is so easy for us to think life is about. we are happy to be free in Him :).

planning the wedding is almost surreal. i can't believe its time to do this, but at the same time...i wish it was tomorrow :).

the semester is nearly over and that's a crazy thought. i honestly couldn't be happier with it, it's been a tough semester for me academically....this is the last time i'll ever have to take over 13 hours - praise the Lord. it's just too much for me. but He is good and i'm fine and it'll all end well :).

and then Christmas will come!
hooray Christmas.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

a brief thought

"what indeed, can tend to deprave the character more than outward submission and inward contempt?" - mary wollstonecraft, a vindication on the rights of woman.

Monday, September 10, 2007

thoughts on contentment

I'm taking Greek 2 this semester. I like it, I think. I really do. Yet I sit down to do it today and half of the words are completely unrecognizable to me and immediately I feel as though "I don't like you anymore." How fickle I am.

I think I need to grow up. I think my contentment needs to come from some place much deeper than Greek homework. I know it does, I know it does. But I want to live out of that something more. Breathe out of it. Crave it. Be satisfied with nothing less.

I don't want to complain. I don't ever want that to be a word that can be associated with my name. I crave to be a joy-giver - a breath of fresh air. Not so I can be Abby, joy-giver. But so I can be a reflection of Jesus Christ - because He is my, He is our, joy-giver. That's who I want to be.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

why am i here?

why a blog? i'm not quite sure yet. i know i love to write and to process and to unveil. i know i learn by teaching. i know i thrive on mutually discovered thoughts and penetrating conversation. i know for me, to share life is to discover the abundance of life itself. so perhaps that is why i am here.